so, I had a party at my house, with a couple of my closest friends. I think most of them enjoyed the night. I definately did. after the last month, just to see everyone having a good time and getting on with eachother was a joy.

so yeah, this is a blog on a happier note. and I’m glad. things are looking up finally, even though I’m spending Valentine’s day packing for a holiday; writing this and watching Skins. I could have done something about that, and it’s funny how certain peopleaffect your judgement. I think I’ve been staring someone in the face for too long without realising. I think.

obviously, I won’t be writing again until I get back. hopefully, I’ll have sorted things out in my head and I’ll come back to school with everyone being okay again. just like it should be.

by the way, thank you for all the views and comments. I just don’t know how to approve them.

speak soon, yeah? thank you. x

take a look at that photo. it’s a good photo, isn’t it?

it was took in may of 2008. when we were all in year 10, (that’s 14/15 yrs old for any foreign reader).

that group of friends have stook by eachother for 4 and a half years through high school in England. it’s all starting to come apart now though. for anyone who is actually in the picture, reading this and doesn’t think so. it is. and it’s so upsetting to me.

the past 3 weeks have been 3 of the worst I’ve ever had to deal with. I need to put it out, to get it off my chest, becuase it won’t get better.

1. school work. my school work was rapidly going down hill. I got my half year report and my parents went ballistic. I got the kick up the backside I needed, and I’ve really concentrated since that. I’m easily distracted though, and find it hard to concentrate on anything except artwork.
2. thing at home. I’ll leave this blank. nothing huge huge. just little things that add up and make a difference in the way I feel.
3. friends. the biggest point. there have been so many fall outs this year, especially after the start to yr11 I’d hoped for. I have gotten closer to certain people that I never thought I would do, but I’ve lost one or two that I really didn’t want to. and it’s completely my own fault.

people have move on though, it just shouldn’t have been like this. I’m so sorry.

I’ll keep this up I think. hopefully my next post will be on a much better note.